So today, let’s talk about one of the biggest struggles that nobody wants to talk about during divorce.
Grief is a tricky thing. When we are conditioned to expect it, as is the case during the death of a loved one know that we must be patient, go through the stages, and the idea is that one day, our mourning will be done, and we’ll be able to move on.
So, why do we forget to do this during divorce? Do we think that we aren’t allowed to, because technically, nobody died?
Not allowing yourself to grieve during divorce is not giving yourself the chance to heal. And not giving yourself the chance to heal means not giving yourself the chance to move on with your life. Robbing ourselves of this grieving process is one of the reasons why, years even after the divorce, we still feel incomplete, still feel like crap, and still feel like our heart is broken.
Let’s change that. Because I know that you deserve a hell of a lot better than still feeling stuck in the past, unable to heal your heart. Not on my watch!
As a quick heads-up to you, my friends, I just need to remind you that I am not a mental health professional. I can, however, talk to you about the strategies that helped me process my own divorce grief so I could move on without being bitter.
The #1 thing we forget when moving on: Divorce is like death. It’s okay to mourn your loss.
Obviously, there are differences between ending a marriage and when a loved one leaves this earth. But consider this:
It is completely normal to feel like your world has crashed into a million pieces and that you’ll never recover from divorce. When you think about it, you’re actually reeling from multiple deaths during divorce, which makes it really hard to move on if you don’t grieve:
Death of your marriage
Death of the life you thought you knew
Death of the visions of your future
Death of the idea of the partner you thought would be for life
Death of your own identity as a partner and a member of a team
Damn! That is a lot of loss to handle. So, why are you going around, thinking you’re fine if you’re still feeling like shit?
Remember, you don’t have to just swallow your pain and act tough. Be okay with the fact that you went through something really shitty and really traumatic that rocked the world and the life you thought you knew. Unless you’re made of stone or are The Terminator, you’re probably going to feel kind of awful.
Here’s the key: it’s okay to accept that you will be sad, angry, in denial, scared, sometimes all within ten minutes of each other.
But the trick comes in being kind enough in making peace with this loss, but motivated enough to not let it hold you prisoner, especially when there are so many beautiful things in this world, just waiting for you to discover them.
Turning that Grief into Insight Exercise
You didn’t think you’d get away without an exercise, did you? Below you’ll find the Gain Insight writing prompts, and as always, I’ve given you an example to get you thinking about how you can apply these strategies to your own situation.
What emotions can I not get my head around that seems to be ruining my life right now? My own example is below:
Sure, we’re divorced, but whenever I look at my clean kitchen and tidy living room, I just feel pissed off about how he made a complete mess of the whole place and never helped around the house. And I’m kicking myself for letting it go on for so damn long. I felt like a house made for years! Why Martha, why?!!?
I can’t change the past, but what can I do about those feelings right now? Take a look at what I put for your own inspiration.
Martha, your house is clean as can be now because you’re no longer living with a slob. Enjoy it, girl! Feel happy about coming home and not seeing dirty-ass underwear on the couch. Embrace that sense of calm now that everything is just the way you left it.
Moving forward, what mindful intervention with I have for myself?
Whenever I start to feel pissed off when I encounter some sort of trigger, I will work to neutralize it. Instead of focusing on the negative and toxic elements, I will work to turn it into something good. It will take practice, but I can’t move on with my life if I am a prisoner to the hurt and regret.
Learning from your own mistakes but not blaming yourself
As with most lessons in life, the things we learn are only as valuable as our willingness and our ability to put them into context, see how, looking back, we would handle the situation differently, and then make a proactive plan to handle things differently in the future. This takes a lot of self-awareness to do, but without it, it’s very hard to not move on and heal. A few things to start thinking about with how this plays into grieving the loss of your marriage that I want you to think about is this…
What are some of the things that you blame yourself for that you still think about?
I am angry with myself that I didn’t communicate my wants and needs more. It’s hard to move on because I feel bitter that my needs were ignored for years.
What are some of the regrets that you still harbor?
I still regret not saying something sooner. I knew that our marriage was falling apart, but I went along with it, in denial, just telling myself that it would get better soon.
How can you change those feelings into something positive moving forward?
I can’t change the past, but I can use what I learned to avoid similar things from happening in the future. In my marriage, I remember that I didn’t communicate well. In my current relationship, I encourage myself to be open and honest, and remind myself to be courageous, sharing my feelings with my partner. It can be hard because I’m afraid Ill get judged, but I remind myself that I deserve—and my partner deserves—open communication.
Getting Support and Holding Yourself Accountable
Regardless of where you are in the process—whether the papers were signed years ago and you’re still wondering how the hell to make sense of it, or you’re still knee-deep in divorce drama right now, or you’re reeling because he or she just moved out, remember that one of the strongest things you can do is reach out for support.
Although the loss of your marriage can feel devastating and grief is a normal part of the process, remember that there are proactive things you can do as you grieve that will help you navigate the grief, lessen the pain, and move on.
So, how about you?
Do you still grieve your divorce? What steps can you take to help with this process? Let me know by replying in the comments below. I love hearing from you, so drop me a line.
Until next time, remember to take care of yourself! You deserve it.